TRULY FREE  

by Kathy Walker (Myakka, FL)

Even though My Encounter was only a couple to weeks ago, I, thankfully, hardly remember the person I was.

I had lost all my joy, I was miserable, making my family miserable, and satan was having a field day with me, even on an hourly basis. I had even thought about suicide. I no longer wanted to live that way any more.  Even as miserable as I was, my husband had to drag me to the encounter weekend. The last thing I wanted to do was be around anyone or talk to anyone.

But, God had other plans, praise God for His other plans! He started working on me immediately Friday night. During a prayer time, I saw Him kneeling at me feet with His arms stretched out, asking me if He could please hold her. He was talking about the little hurt girl inside me, but I clung to her, trying to explain how I tried my best to take care of her, to do what I could to protect her. He was so patient. He said He knew I did my best, but He just wanted to hold her. I wouldn't, couldn't let go.

The next day, He worked slowly on me, peel things away, till He tried again, kneeling at my feet, asking to please hold her, I bawked a little, till she said that she wanted Him to hold her, then I released. The next thing I saw was both the little girl (me) and me as I am now, both, sitting on His lap. He was hugging both of us, then instantly I was a whole person again. My joy restored. I knew I was loved, cherished and forgiven! Wow, what an incredible feeling.

I truly am free!  Praise my Father in heaven!